Ok, so it’s been a while since I wrote about my journey and God’s amazing blessings of guidance.

How long exactly?

Believe it or not, about two years. 

As we get older, it feels like time just flies by and gets away from you. That’s exactly what happened with me. This past two years have gone by so fast, and through it, God continued to guide me and my family every step of the way.

So what happened after that pivotal day when my wife told me she could not help me with this battle, and I took it to God with every last piece of my heart and soul?

What happened from that day forward was nothing short of miraculous.

It did not happen overnight, but the more I started listening to God and his direction, the more it honestly started not making sense at the time, but looking back it’s when all things were falling into place, though in the moment it certainly did not feel like it.

During that period, I continued to struggle to find my way, my wife was pregnant with our second son, I accepted a new position back in Pittsburgh though we had no plans or desire to move back to PA from NC, a few weeks later before we even moved for the new job, Covid hit and was shutting down the world. 

Our oldest was visiting back in PA and they were shutting down state borders. Literally overnight, my sisters and their families drive to NC, we packed everything, and moved back to PA, all paid for by the new company I was starting with.

I started the new job, a month later my wife had our baby boy, the new company advanced me a weeks vacation, and after returning, two days later I was pulled into the office for the owner of the company to tell me they eliminated the brand new position they just created.

What was going on? 

It made no sense, but at the time with Covid, nothing made sense and I quickly realized there is more to this move and this chapter. This was not about me, but something God had planned. 

During that year in PA, God provided, God gave us breakthrough in our finances, God moved my wife into a new advancement in her oncology career, and God provided  me with quality time with my wife and sons.

I stressed and beat myself up, but looking back it was such a blessing.

I was at a doctors appointment during this time and the doctor asked what I do for a living.

I was embarrassed to tell him I was currently home with my boys. He looked at me and said, do not miss the chance to enjoy this moment. What I would give to be able to spend a year with my kids. Man that’s a blessing.

That hit me hard coming from a doctor.

I struggled to fight with identity and guilt of not working that year.

We quickly realized we were back in PA for a season and wanted to move back to NC. My wife interviewed for a position in Charlotte and we were waiting to hear back from them.

I was pulling into the driveway one day and was trapped in my head, beating myself up. As I walked toward the house and grabbed the door handle to open it, something hit me as if it were electricity coming from the door handle in slow motion and God said to me, once I put your wife where I want her to be, I will take care you.

Until Next Time …..